1.5 years ago

its been 1.5years.
im sorry lovelylaurels for neglecting you. You were once too painful to bear. =)

Milestones have passed since then. i have overcame mountains and hills, and crossed oceans to who i am today. There may be somethings i may not be too proud of yet or have yet to achieve but I'm striving.. perhaps not hard enough.

Career - check
Family - check
Friends - check
Health - check
Mental health - check
Bank account health - negative
Further Education - TBC (To commence in 2011)
Love life - nul
Spiritual life - numb

after a run-down on the "important" things in life, I still feel that hole that needs to be bridged to God. Here i am trying to juggle everything in human terms but yet feel that gap that only God can fulfill. All the friends/spirits/activities would never be able to satisfy you.

God, where art thou?

its amazing, 1.5years ago I haven't even began the career i just left. Was God in play? i really hope so. Even though the "world" seems to smile with you thinking its your efforts, you somehow know that God was at play. Jaded people in the marketplace are atheists and are God delusional.

God, i don't want to be delusional from you. Work in my life. Give me the hunger. I want to constantly hear your comforting whisper.